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It's been a weird week for me. Right now I envisioned myself as finishing up FL8, but I didn't do that. In fact I'm only half way through the inks for five. I still have a long way to go to get 5-9 done and 9 is a special hellacious beast (she's got thirteen panels, yikes!). Here's the weird thing though. This week I took it easy and tried to get my courage back and it wasn't easy. In fact I kept stressing about whether or not I was cut up for this gig and if I should quit again. I'll be honest I was in a dark place... WAS.
Remember how this piece put me in a funk?
Well this piece gave me my mojo back!
I put so much of myself in that first piece that I forgot how to crawl afterwards and I didn't take a break and that caused me to burn out for a while. But that second piece I worked on it so tenderly and diligently. I took three days to do it and I didn't pay it much love till the end. Must have spent a good four or five hours on the last day for it. I keep coming back to it and thinking, "that's my hometown girl!" I'm really proud of it, but more than that it fills me with an insatiable urge to do it all over again. I want to paint and correct the mistakes made in it. More than that though I want to draw! I really want to draw! That piece made me love drawing! I guess that's what's been killing me when we get down to it. Failure and despair. I gave up on myself and I went into a dark place where I thought I couldn't top myself anymore. I felt I had peaked, but that's not true. I broke my Gordian Knot! And I can do it again. I will do it again. I'm glad I painted that piece. I feel great again. I'm ready to take on Freedom's Lust again.
You know that scene in Nightmare Before Christmas? The one where Jack is singing about the mistakes he made in being Sandy Claws, Poor Jack. There's a part in it where he says, "Well what the heck I went and did my best and by god I really tasted something swell! And for a moment why I even touched the sky and at least I left some stories they can tell, I did!" From that point on in the song he jumps up and remembers who he was. He comes to terms with who he is and finds a new meaning and purpose in it. That's how I feel right now. Like I failed, learned from it, and am eager to seek out personal redemption. "And by god I'm really going to give it all my might! ...I hope there's still time to set things right."
Freedom's Lust Schedule
Issues 1-3 October 18th (Anniversary Week)
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From R. Lore
Remember how this piece put me in a funk?
Well this piece gave me my mojo back!
I put so much of myself in that first piece that I forgot how to crawl afterwards and I didn't take a break and that caused me to burn out for a while. But that second piece I worked on it so tenderly and diligently. I took three days to do it and I didn't pay it much love till the end. Must have spent a good four or five hours on the last day for it. I keep coming back to it and thinking, "that's my hometown girl!" I'm really proud of it, but more than that it fills me with an insatiable urge to do it all over again. I want to paint and correct the mistakes made in it. More than that though I want to draw! I really want to draw! That piece made me love drawing! I guess that's what's been killing me when we get down to it. Failure and despair. I gave up on myself and I went into a dark place where I thought I couldn't top myself anymore. I felt I had peaked, but that's not true. I broke my Gordian Knot! And I can do it again. I will do it again. I'm glad I painted that piece. I feel great again. I'm ready to take on Freedom's Lust again.
You know that scene in Nightmare Before Christmas? The one where Jack is singing about the mistakes he made in being Sandy Claws, Poor Jack. There's a part in it where he says, "Well what the heck I went and did my best and by god I really tasted something swell! And for a moment why I even touched the sky and at least I left some stories they can tell, I did!" From that point on in the song he jumps up and remembers who he was. He comes to terms with who he is and finds a new meaning and purpose in it. That's how I feel right now. Like I failed, learned from it, and am eager to seek out personal redemption. "And by god I'm really going to give it all my might! ...I hope there's still time to set things right."
Freedom's Lust Schedule
Issues 1-3 October 18th (Anniversary Week)
Issue 4 November 1st
Issue 5-9 December December 27th
Issue 10-Issue 13 January 10th
Issue 14-Issue 20 February 21st
Issue 21-Issue 26 April 3rd
Issue 27-Issue 30 May 1st
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Cheers to comebacks!
From R. Lore
The Year of Thunder
Sup, dude. Been a while, huh? Like... uh... almost four years... yeah, things changed. Lost some stuff, kept some friendships despite not being around, learned a lot, grew a lot! So, I guess it'd be best if I start from the top. 2018 was the year of clouds because I spent it growing, building, watching the sunset and making every day matter, but 2019 was not the year I wanted it to be. I ended up crashing and burning out really hard that year. I was pushing really hard to learn everything I could to get higher and go further and be more. I told myself I had, HAD, to make something that felt like a comic to prove to myself that I could hang, and I did. I did Journey June on instagram and I finished it! Then I got tired in July and I slowed down, and every month since then I got slower and slower until I stopped. Like an old horse that had a bad fall and got a limp I became obsolete. I lost my touch, fell out of touch with the friends I made and shifted gears to making money at dead
The Year of Clouds
Hello! I haven't kept up with my online presence in a bit, so I will catch you up to speed. The last piece that you saw me upload was on October 27th, and it's been... about 4 months, a week, and a day since you've heard from me, and that is on me. That's a bad, I'm not gonna lie. So what happened? Well, on November 1st, I spilled water on my laptop, and that put a hard stop on my arting. The last journal update I gave said I needed a break, well I got one. XD I was put on a break unwillingly due to my own stupidity. However, my break lasted longer than was desirable. I was without a personal computer for a month, and ten days. I got my n
Work Horse Out For Rest
Been meaning to share this for a little, but keep forgetting, I'm actually taking this Anniversary Week off. I worked really hard over the summer, and had to take a sabbatical in September to rest up. I have a lot of the pinups that I was going to post planned out, so I might release those at a later date, but I don't know. Just really tired with my work right now. Not burned out, but more lethargic. I'll be up, and at 'em in November, and December. Slowly getting back into my work now. Just needed a small break.
Shameless Plug For My Good Friend
Heya! So my good, good friend Doubi needs some help! She's been asked to display at Paris Comic Con, and it's a fantastic opportunity, but she doesn't have the money to put up for the convention right now. If you're feeling generous, and want to help an amazballs super razzmatazz badass artist then I'd suggest donating to her Go fund me here: https://www.gofundme.com/help-doubi-showcase-on-comic-con
Here's some of her recent work if you're still on the fence about supporting here:
You can read her own journal about her go fund me here:
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