Hey Ref, Stop the Count. I'm Up.

Well. My anatomy is shit. Yeah, I’ve kind of been on a lighting jag for a while and have been getting super obsessed with the stuff. In getting obsessed with lighting I forgot about the other thing that makes art believable, anatomy. Heh, see now if I drew objects then I’d be fine, but had to do this the hard way and choose women. Man, I am stupid. And stubborn.

Well even if the anatomy is terrible, LOOK AT THAT LEG! THAT’S A BELIEVABLE ASS LEG! Finally getting the hang of legs! Next is feet. Also need to work on the skeleton and the muscle categories. Drawing is hard. Heh.

Honestly thought I’m being overtly happy. This piece took way longer than it should have. I did the rough sketch twice because the perspective felt off. Think I bit off that fundamental too soon as well. Perspective drawing isn’t easy and this wasn’t even a hard perspective drawing! Just goes to show how much I know. Though the lineart and roughs weren’t the hard part, it was the painting. I couldn’t force myself to do the paint because I kept getting scared I couldn’t do it well. I only got to it recently. This piece was started before the new year, we’re 'bout done with the first month of 2016.

You ever try swimming in 20 meter deep water without a life guard? Bench pressing your max without a spotter? Boxing without a corner man? That’s what I was doing with this piece. I kept getting out of the corner more scared than the last time, because I knew no one was going to patch me up. No one was going to give me water when I got withered. No one was going to tell me how well I was going. No one was going to believe in me when I couldn’t. I did come out of the corner though, that’s the important part. I did do damage. I did win… by the skin of my teeth. I wish had a corner man…

Heh, despite it all, my griping and bitching and self loathing, this is actually probably my best piece. I took so much time with this that I didn’t even realize that it was really good for me. Heh, that’s funny, because I still think it’s shit, but that’s why we get stronger. I will get stronger.

As an aside, does anyone remember or know about this piece? It was made two years ago today and was the first drawing of Esme. Today’s her birthday. Me and the old girl have been through a lot of shit and I forgot her birthday last year, for reasons unknown to me. It might have been prepping for three muses or just general lack of knowledge. Whatever the reasons this is her birthdaysuit drawing. I’ll make a better one next year.

Going with the old adage of not showing anything and this isn't explicitly sexual, so no mature content this time. I'll add it if it's a problem.

Credits:

Jawline References: One, Two, Three, Four, Five, Six,

Hair references:
One, two, three.

Bathroom Reference:

One,

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